MrJsn

I've been trying to stay more positive lately. As a result, I've started to actually become more positive too. Trying to correct my ill thoughts and words by at least making an attempt at stating something that is positive, but also true, of the thing. Trying to at least set the balance to neutral, rather than overall negative. I figure if I can't be positive, then I can at least shoot for being neutral. For example, currently I often find myself saying, "This job isn't working", while lamenting over my day job. At the same time, that same job is working, enough, in the moment. It is supporting my family and allowing me to have time with them even though I don't feel great while I'm at work. Granted, the stresses of my day job do carry into my evenings and my personal life, as I am someone who has a hard time compartmentalizing myself, but when I try to find some positive light in the situation, I can, if I look for it or at least make the attempt to l...

I've been experimenting with making music lately. For decades I have wanted to be a professional musician. I never really tried to "make it". I more or less dreamed about making it, but never really tried to do the stuff required of me to actually make it. In fairness, I have been trying to make it as a father for the last 20 years and so my focus was on trying to provide a stable income. In addition, my wife was disabled in 2005 with a traumatic brain injury and doesn't work as a result, so my hands have been full. So this about a month ago I set out on a journey to really go for it. I set out to make an album in time for my 47th birthday. This date is a bit arbitrary, but if I am being truthful, we were invited to a wedding that is set to happen two days after my birthday this year. At this wedding, I will be seeing a lot of people that are childhood friends and really close family friends. What I didn't want to do is show up with nothing to report. I didn't...